There is always room to fail

I had a pretty kick butt day. I stuck to my diet, I worked out, I did a load of towels before we ran out in my bathroom and I had a nice lunch visit with a friend. As life tends to happen I hit a fail. I homeschool my 17 year old autistic son, he's super high functioning and does most of his work independently. Well I've been trying to encourage him to do some writing, this seems to be one of his biggest struggles putting his thoughts and feelings into complete sentences. So after sitting down with him this evening and getting zero feedback I had to do the delicate dance of letting him know the schedule was going to change and I would be taking a more active role in his daily work all while not pissing him off or making him think I thought he couldn't handle it. I get so discouraged by his lack of want to. I know as he grows older and we talk to him about driving and starting a job he seems to retreat but still wants to move on with life. I have no idea how to transition him into the real world. All the advice I can get online is to try different behavioral therapists to help him navigate this process, but lets be honest, we live in one of the poorest counties in rural Oklahoma. The closest counselors I've found are more than two hours away and I have two typical teenage daughters to manage too. Forget about getting insurance to pay any of it. Just one of those days I feel like I'm letting him down.

Why do we do this to ourselves? I know parenting is totally trial and error but how much error room is there? I really don't want a moody 30 year old in my house later in life.

When you find the instruction book send it my way please.

Just me

I never thought I would be a blogger. I really never thought what I had to say anybody would want to bother reading about. So what has changed you may ask. I really couldn't tell you, I just feel compelled to write. 

I am an imperfect Christian firstly. I try my best and that is all I ask of those around me. I am a wife to a great husband who makes me laugh and drives me crazy. I am a mother to 4 almost grown and grown children. I am a mother in law. I babysit a precious little girl who I would do anything for and am glad she goes home at 5:00. I am honest. I am loving.

I have been a teen mother. I have been slutty. My feelings get hurt easily. I have been mean. I have been selfish. I have been lazy. I try not to be those things anymore. Some days are easier than others. 

I don't know what I want to accomplish by putting myself out there for the world to read about. I will be real, I will be honest and you may not like it all. If you know me in real life you may be surprised to find out about me. I'm ok with that as long as you can be respectful. I like differing opinions and you can be my friend if we have them. 

So as I figure out how to do this please bear with me and be kind.